endless roads.

i packed my things and waved goodbye. the door shut and i peered out into the world to come. i pressed the gas pedal to the floor, still not knowing where i was going. your face echoed in the back round as i screamed. i never need you to show me were i needed to go, i`ll never know that. i`m always lost, better yet i always will be. i guess the sence of direction was never granted to me. i`m numb to the feeling. my road has continued and it`s made many turns into finding what it is i need in life. sometimes i wonder am i even worth loving, could anyone love you? why put up a fight that you`ll most likely never win. i`d call myself an ongoing battle that you`ll never defeat. when i reach my new destination i`ll look out the window and smile. i`m not smiling because i`m happy, i`m smiling because it`s what i`ll call home. nothing long term, nothing for me is. just a temporary moment of bliss. it lets my mind rest and believe it`s ment to be this time.